Friday, November 18, 2011

First Bit of the Queen's Defense

*Takes a few deep breaths* Ok. Here we go. Do you know how hard it is to START a story? It is with shakey nerves that I put this out there. Again, If there are suggestions and help and all that, I'd be glad to hear it. Here's the very first installment of The Queen's Defense:

The Queen’s Defense-  Chapter One- Ripples

            Two women’s deaths altered my life forever. The first toppled everything in an instant, while the second took a little longer to make its transformation.
            My mother was content in her quiet life. She was peaceful, kind, and calm. She was friendly and wonderful with every person she met, but did not seek to be known among many. I was much like my mother that way: I preferred to be inconspicuous. She had loved our isolated home away from the crowds of the Royal City. She needed nothing else but her family and the trees. She loved the forest, the smell of the various trees and flowers, the songs of the birds and the peace.
            My mother met and fell in love with my merchant father when she was a young woman. She had lived in the Royal City and met him while he was an apprentice. Her calm complimented his restlessness. His ease with people and ready laughter brought out her own sunny personality. They were perfect for one another, and her peaceful, cheerful, and quiet ways helped her bear the long periods of time that my father’s trade took him away from her.  Giving birth to and caring for my younger brother, Jarrett, and me also helped fill the lonely times before Father would return, successful and overjoyed to be with his family again. He would remain home for as long as he could, until his love, our mother, died.
            She fell ill with a debilitating disease that left her sicker and weaker with each passing month. I was eleven and Jarrett was nine when the healer first diagnosed her. My father cut his trips shorter and shorter leaving his trade with his apprentices more and more to be home with her. We were all devastated.
I knew my mother was frustrated with her ever- weakening condition, and even more frustrated to cause the family pain, but she rarely showed it. Her eyes still lit up every time we walked into her room. She continued to love her less frequent and shorter walks through the forest until she was confined to her bed. We would then read stories, sing, and laugh with her in her room. We’d play make believe and defeat monsters, dragons, and evil sorcerers. I took over being the woman of the house and cared for my brother while my mother did what she could from her bed. She stayed with us for two years, and then left us, her content life cut much too short.
            My father was never the same. The light in his eyes faded. He returned to work full force and would stay away longer than he ever did before. When he came home there was only sadness in his eyes that would shift to guilt whenever he looked at us. He would then leave almost as quickly as he arrived. Jarrett and I were left with each other and our few servants, very well cared for monetarily, but not familiarly. We wanted our father back, and we no longer had our mother.
As the years flew by, my brother and I grew used to keeping ourselves occupied. We both were sent to school and my brother continued on to the Royal City. He wanted to become a man of the law and an advisor to the king and his cabinet, while I returned home after the four years of school for ladies. I became accustomed to the simple, solitary life once again, this time without my brother. I remained unmarried and found tranquility in music, books, and managing the house and my father’s affairs while he was away. I was satisfied in the quiet life, and despite my father and brother’s attempts at finding good suitors for me; they were few and did not work out. I was at peace with being alone.  My quiet life, however, did not last.
I was nineteen when the queen’s death rippled through the kingdom. We did not hear of it until three days after the Royal City had announced it. The queen was elegant and very well liked by all her subjects. I had heard that she was kind, and many appreciated and admired her. I heard it from my regular spot on the window seat, with the story of a run-away maiden in my hands. Tara, our housekeeper, answered the door and I heard the solemn voice of the messenger relay the sad news. I shut the book and my hand clenched near my heart. It had been eight years since my own mother’s death, and I shed a few tears for the King and his daughter. The news impacted the kingdom, and brought back deep sorrow for me, but I had no idea that it would play a significant role in the rest of my life. Another five years passed before my life would once again be turned upside down.
            I sat in my usual spot in the window seat of my room, twenty- four years of age and quickly approaching twenty- five. I had finished my duties for the day and was curled up with a fairy tale I had read hundreds of times. I smiled as I turned the worn pages of the book and bit my lip expectantly at my favorite part. No matter how many times I read it I still tingled happily. I twirled a strand of hair around my finger, shining more golden brown than its usual darker auburn in the late afternoon sun streaming through the window. My ears perked at a familiar yet rare sound. The faint patter of horse hooves and the creak of a cart’s wheels echoed against the trees on the road to our home. I dropped the book and sat up swiftly, my eyes scouring the road. My mouth curved into a wide smile and I ran out of my room toward the front door.
            “Evalien!” Tara scolded as I raced by the sitting room. “What in the world . . .?”
            “Father is home!” I called over my shoulder and tore open the door. I could feel her disapproving eyes on my back as I gathered up my skirts to speed across our courtyard to the road. I reached the cart and my father leapt down. I ran into his outstretched arms. “Hello my Evie.” He held me tight and waved his driver and assistants on.
            We held each other for a long moment before he released me and took my arm gently to walk with me back to the house. “How was the journey?” I asked cheerfully.
            He gave my arm a little squeeze. “Long as usual, but it was successful.” He smiled, his eyes tired. “I stopped in the Royal City on the way home with the intention of delivering that beautiful stallion to the King’s stable.” He pointed to the gorgeous chestnut steed tied to the back of his slowly retreating cart. My head cocked slightly, like I had seen a dog do, confused why the horse was still in his possession. He continued,  “His Majesty was not there to receive him. I believe it must be a present for someone, for I was to deliver it only to the King. So, I wait for word.”
            I raised my eyebrows in interest, knowing he was excited about his rise to being one of the King’s favorite merchants. “And you came home. I’m so glad you did.”
“I saw your brother.” His smile widened, proud. “He is doing well and told me something interesting.”
            I glanced at him out of the corner of my eye.
 “I understand the latest suitor did not work out.” He gave me a meaningful look.
I bit my lip and shrugged lightly. “He was not  . . . quite what any of us expected.”
“Evalien . . .”
“Jarrett did not approve either,” I tried to point out. “Did he not tell you?”
“He told me.” His face had darkened slightly, and his eyes looked off in the distance.
I took the opportunity to quickly change the subject. “The . . . King was not at home then?”
“Ah, yes . . .” He gave my arm a pat. “When I arrived at the castle there was a message for me stating that the King was out and wanted to me look over his stallion a little longer. He is vacationing at his hunting lodge that is located a little further out in these woods.” He nodded toward the trees at the edge of our courtyard. “It is closer to our home than the Royal City so . . . ,” he paused and turned to me, putting his hands on my shoulders. “His Majesty is coming to our home in a few days.”
My eyes widened. “The King? He . . . is coming here?”
He patted my arm again. “Now don’t worry. I knew a letter would reach you as soon as I did. We have a few days. It will only be a quick visit . . .We will get this place fit for a King.”
“Father . . .  why here? Why not have you deliver it to the lodge?”
He lifted his shoulders in a slow shrug. “I think he wants to visit the place and meet the family.” He avoided my eyes, which I thought was a little odd, but brushed it off at the time.  “Or he may be checking up on me and see if I am who I say I am.” He chuckled softly. “Mostly, dear, I think he just wants to try out the horse, get out of the usual spots, and get me to take him to the best hunting locations I know. Do not worry.”
I gave his arm a squeeze. “I’m not worried, just surprised. The King . . . .” I shook my head slightly.
My father chuckled. He led me back into the house to relay the news to the servants.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Sneak Peek

    As promised, since it is National Novel Writing Month, look for the first chapter of my own attempt at writing. ^^; You'll have to give me input and let me know if its any good. The idea has been circling around my brain for years, waiting to get out. Actually, a few of them, but this one is really wanting to. It will be a little tricky with watching Once Upon a Time lately, however.

The story is a retelling of Snow White, but not from the perspective you would expect. It is from her stepmother's perspective. The "Evil queen". Except . . . what if she wasn't evil? What about her side of the story? What really happened and how did the story even come about? 

Sound interesting? I hope so. I've always been one for the underdog and interested in the "background" character stories. This one was huge flash of inspiration while I was driving and heard the song In Defense of the Wicked Queen on my ipod. It was amazing what the character in my head suddenly TOLD me. Maybe that sounds strange, but I've always had stories and characters in my head since I was little. I think it might be time to give them a voice. 

Anyway, it will be an attempt. I definitely am open to help from others to make it better- I was a music major . . not English. If I get courageous enough I may also post it on Deviant Art. We'll see. This in itself is a big step for me. If this goes well it may be the beginning of a series. I already have the magic harp from Jack in the Beanstalk asking for a story of her own. ^^

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Day 29 and 30!!!

Last two days of the challenge!! I can't believe October is almost over! :( 

Day 29: A couple

Unfortunately just a sketch again. I'm pretty please with how the girl turned out . . . the guy . . eh. Ears, I tell ya . . . . Not uber detailed, but good practice at a different pose. 

Day 30! Congratulatory Card for finishing!

Another quickie. Tried to make it look like it was "scrapbooked" ish. Like . . . torn . . . and really didn't work out ^^; I think I've figured out NOW how to get it to look that way . . but . . . its scanned in and done. I'm still planning on working more on art, but on to the next challenge. Next month is National Novel Writing Month . . . so guess what? You may actually get chapters of a novel I may attempt to write! >.> We shall see how things work out . . . I also have Hymns of Thanksgiving . . . busy busy, but I still would like to try. 

This weekend was SO fun! My family came down because my sister is Halloween Queen. It is SO fun to celebrate Halloween with her! We went to the Zombie Walk and watched them dance "Thriller" at City Hall. Saw so many fun zombies! One was a chicken covered in fake blood eating KFC chicken. HAha! And there was a girl zombie that kept finding Dad. LOL it was great! We want to participate next year. ^^

Whew! So many projects and things to do . . . skills to learn and get better at ^^; Not NEARLY enough time in a day. TTFN!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Day 28: Something you Need

SUPER quick sketch today. Total of 5 minutes. For reals. WAY too much to do before teaching, helping my sis today, and getting ready for rehearsal and family Halloween funness tomorrow. Whew!

Money, honey! That's what I need- in case you can't tell what it is. I'd just love to be out of debt of student loans. Blah. If you can't tell, those are gold bars. It'd be nice to have a few stored away >.> LOL Anyway .  . . off to the races again. 

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Day 27: Favorite Fairytale

We've established that I love fairytales. I love basically ALL fairytales, but if I had to pick a favorite, it would be this one:

Can you guess? Its Cinderella. I love that story and many different versions of the story. I'm a type of person that likes it when the underdog wins and poo heads don't. *shrug* I'm pretty pleased with how it turned out. I'd like to make it much better . . . but this works for a sketch and for the daily challenge. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Day 26: Inspiration

One of my inspirations . . especially for drawing, coloring . . all that, is Disney. Especially their classic movies with gorgeous art and color, animation, and wonderful music. Disneyland and Disney movies make me happy. I would have loved to be a Disney voice, animator, or designer. But that's not the path I ended up taking. Weird how I forgot about that for a while.

All done with colored pencils this time. Took WAY too much time for how simple it is >.>. Disney lettering is hard! Yikes . . . gotta run off and get some things done ^^; eh heh.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Day 25: Still life

*sigh* NOt enough time to do something amazing. But here we go:

I chose the object I spend the most time with. Oy . . . not the greatest drawing. ^^; I apologize for lack of awesome, but it had to be quick. Blast. I'll have to keep working on it and perfect some shading and measuring and all that. I have no patience >.> Something to work on.
Back in undergrad, we had names for our instrument. Mine is Antonio, after Stradivarius, and a male name. Basically . . .because I wish it was a Strad and I couldn't justify spending that much time with a female instrument. There you go! May upload a much better one eventually heh. Happy Tuesday.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Day 24: Something you miss

Halloween is a week from today! Yay! Today's challenge is something you miss. There's a few things I miss, but one thing I really miss is the happy-go-lucky, imagination using, not caring one bit what people think childhood.

I miss making forts out of blankets, chairs, couch cushions, sleeping bags . . all sorts of furniture. ^^ I may have to one day and read a book or something. Watching my nieces and nephews this weekend and playing with them was so fun. Its always fun. I adore being an aunt. I love how they look at everything with curiosity and a box or a green tomato can be the funnest thing in the world. I miss having that optimistic, imaginative view of the world. Some things I don't miss about being younger, but that easiness of life I do.
Still working on cloth . . . eventually it will look how I want it to. ^^

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Days 22 and 23

I spent this weekend with my family at my parents' to celebrate my dad's birthday. Saturday was chalk full of stuffs- so . heh . . . no drawing that day. I'm covering both days today.

Day 22: Someone you Love

I love lots of people <3 My family for one, the wonderful friends that have been so fun and so amazing here, my dear childhood friends, and my fabulous friends that live far away from me. I chose someone who has been there for me even though she lives very very far away from me: Leah.

Leah is an inspiration. She joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter - day Saints a couple years ago and I was blessed and privileged to attend and see the progress. She's amazing. She rides horses like a pro and never gives up on her passion and dreams. She's a great author and artist: so multi-talented! You should see her amazing paintings of horses! I got to visit her this past March/April during my spring break and even though I had to spend two nights in the Las Vegas airport, (crappiest airport to stay overnight by the way) one going and one coming home, it was completely worth it. I loved that week I got to stay with her. Leah, you are beautiful and amazing! She is a ray of sunshine in life. So many things in our life are similar. We're twins in so many ways. ^^ Which is just fine with me. Love you dearly, my friend!

Day 23: Favorite Flower

I love flowers. Mostly in gardens . . . I'm not a huge fan of bouquets cuz they die quickly. ^^; Especially mine. But, flowers have meaning, they're beautiful, and I still like receiving them for the thought. I learned about the different types of flowers a LONG time ago from my dear grandmother who also taught me violin. She had a green thumb. Another multi talented woman. Its hard to pick a favorite. I love lilies of the valley . . those pretty little flowers. <3 But I chose a forget-me- not. The meaning behind the flower, the color, and the shape (kind of like a star) make me happy. I smiled when Elder Uchtdorf talked about the flowers in the General Relief Society meeting.

Forget me not's meaning:
True love, hope, remembrance, memories

Friday, October 21, 2011

Day 21: Something you Want

Hi! Hmm . . well, there's a few things that I want, but I decided to pick one . . . . based on if you gotta dream, dream big. A sweet, hot, rich, spiritual boyfriend/husband. Nice right? 

This guy is based off of hottie Matt Bomer. Um . . . . not very good, but hey . . . whatevs. it was a very quick sketch. Of course getting married would not solve all problems, and probably would cause more problems . .or just different ones. But . . . it sure would be nice not to have to worry or look anymore. There's something I want. Another would be a beautiful, expensive, amazing violin . . . but if the guy is rich then . . . . ;) Have a good Friday! Love Fridays. And its a beautiful October Friday. 

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day 20: Favorite Animated Character

Picking a favorite animated character is difficult for me. I love cartoons! I will forever love the amazing art of animation. I think its sad that Disney has gone mostly computer instead of hand drawing. I miss the amazing artwork. So, I picked a classic Disney character!

Donald Duck! He's hilarious! I love him <3 My grandfather (Papa) can do the voice so well and so can my Uncle David. I have NO idea how men can make all those sound effects they can. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Day 19: Comic Strip

For the comic I picked a moment many many years ago when Professor Craig Purdy from BSU came to Twin Falls to do a master class and he was teaching my sister Joanna. She was little, and so cute!

I love it! And Prof. Purdy still giggles about it! :) I tell my little violin students about it often. They generally don't get it, but their parents giggle. Joanna has lots of cute moments. Heehee. Anyway, its my Dad's birthday!! He's one amazing man. I was able to take violin lessons from Mr. Purdy throughout my high school years because he was willing every other Friday to drive me to Boise so I could take lessons with him. Dad is so supportive, funny, and so smart! He's such a great example of what I need to look for for my own future husband. Thank you, Dad!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day 18: A Place you Want to Visit

I have been very lucky to visit a few places: France, Switzerland, Belgium, Canada. :) But here's another place I want to visit:

If you cannot tell its New Zealand! Decided to try my map drawing skills. >.> My Dad went to New Zealand on his mission and its so gorgeous. I love hearing his mission stories. By the way, its his birthday tomorrow!! I'm excited to celebrate it with him this weekend. ^^ I wish I could take him to New Zealand for his birthday.
I love traveling. Not always the traveling part of it . .  but the visiting new places, especially learning other cultures, seeing other buildings . . especially the gorgeous centuries old cathedrals in Europe. That was amazing!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day 17: Something you don't like

I had a few options here . . . but seriously these creep me out:

Clowns. Ugh. Painted faces, get in your face . . supposedly funny, but not . . . pointy teeth. Heck, Ronald McDonald creeps me out. *shiver* They give me the heebie jeebies like spiders. Yuck yuck yuck!
Not only these type of clowns but the clown in the White House currently. And the moronic hippie clowns on Occupy Wall Street and all over. I was going to draw a hippie . . . cuz what they did and still do to our country . . . not ok. Thanks Progressives for completely screwing us up. But . . . I chose the clown, partly cuz I'm a little pressed for time, and didn't feel like drawing a dirty hippie. 
I don't appreciate what they are doing to the businesses on the streets they are occupying and running around topless, doing drugs, having sex out on the streets, completely destroying and dirtying up everything, wanting to take my hard earned tax dollars so they could sit on their butts and be professional protestors. Yah . . they're sure shining examples of my country. (I'm not lying ..  look it up)
BIGGEST pet peeve: hypocritical jerks. That would be pretty much all of our politicians, and those wonderful protestors that scream about companies while wearing brand names and playing Angry Birds on their Iphones.  I could go on about how they don't spew any facts . . but I think the rant should be done for the day. Off I go to get things done. 
Stay away from clowns . . . and hippies. Peace!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Whew! Day 15 and 16

Day 15: Family Portrait

Sorry I didn't get it uploaded yesterday: worked all day then had TWO parties right after work. Woot! Fun but this was a doozy. I have a HUGE family. Seven kids and most of them are married with kids. So . . . unfortunately only chibis . ..  and not very good chibis . . . but I'll have to do a better one for Christmas or something.

Upper left is Donny. I cut off the label name accidentally. He belongs to Rob and Wendy. ^^ I love my big ol' family! Its Becca, Kelly and their two: Arika and Ava. Missy and Eric and their two: Isaac and River. Rob and Wendy and their FIVE!!!! Donny, Paige, Robbie, Kaysha, and brand new sweetie Jordanne. Then me. Then Sierra, Seth, and Porter (with two sweet baby girls in heaven). Joanna and Kory. Mikki, and cute doggie Senji with Mom and Dad. Our huge family. <3 We're all so different! All colors of hair . . . its fun

Day 16: Favorite TV show. The people who recognize this awesome character get a gold star.

REBOOT!!!!!!!! I love that show! And this is Bob from Reboot! I love him! <3 Anybody who hasn't seen that show, its on play instantly on Netflix. GO SEE IT! <3 All computer animation when it was just starting to become big. Fabulous show from when I was growing up and needs to be finished! I heard a rumor about a movie coming out >.> I hope so!

I apologize about the very sketchiness of the drawings. Doing two in one day is rough @_@. Especially drawing the WHOLE family! Mom, I dunno how you draw the adorable Christmas cards every year! I know. . I'm a wimp.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Day 14: Most Recent Accomplishment

Well . . . . My most recent accomplishment is a graduation that happened over a year ago. I graduated with my Masters in Music Performance. I feel like probably the dumbest masters grad, but  . . . I did it. ^^ And probably won't go on to a doctorate . . . but who knows.

 Currently teaching violin students and working very part time helping out at a music store. I love teaching and playing when I can. I'm also trying to do the weight loss thing. I need to for health (it will help with PCOS and Fibro) and just cuz I really need to. Heh. Yay health.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Day 13: Favorite Book/Author

Another hard one to pick. I have a favorite series. Its called the Once Upon a Time series with actually a small group of authors. They are the retellings of fairy tales and I LOVE them!

I will always be a romantic, fairy tale girl. Plus, they are clean and so well- written, unlike so many teen and adult books now. Blah. Check them out! They are fab. ^^

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Day 12: Draw Anything!

What's up? Little fun drawing for you. Quick sketchy of Dug. :) I love him! Dug from Disney/Pixar Up.

I love dogs! And Dug is so cute! I have a little stuffed Dug in my room, who talks, and he was my inspiration today. I miss Senji, my mom's little shih tzu. He's a sweetie, a crazy dog, but just a good boy. <3 Aw I'm gonna go hug my Dug now. 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Day 11: Scenery

If you can't tell its a castle with a stormy sky. I kinda stink at scenery >.> But this was good practice. :) Grass . . . . I'm gonna have to learn to use Photoshop. >.> Here you go!

The weather has been a lot like that here. Gloomy, stormy, rainy. Heehee! Perfect for October/ Halloween awesomeness. Yes . . . I am one of those. I love storms, rain, all that. Its fun!
My brain feels rattled. Had to get a filling replaced and I swear my dentist (I love him though ^^) drilled my tooth off! Guh. Dental work. I don't like it!
Stay tuned for tomorrow's challenge!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Day 10: Something Orange

I'm actually really pleased with this one. ^^ Something orange: Perfect for October/ Halloween!

Pumpkin! I love pumpkins! They're so fun, and I love pretty much anything pumpkin <3 Tah dah! Spent way too much time on this >.> Gotta run and go clean the apartment before teaching. Cold is almost gone! Finally!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Day 9: Favorite Food

I love food. It was tricky picking a favorite. But for sure its this:

Sushi! Mmmm.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Day 8: Best friend

I have to put two best friends. My mother: who has always always been there for me, and my dear friend, Andrea, who has been my best friend for years and years.

Andrea just had a beautiful baby girl and lives in another state. We don't get to see each other or even really talk much, but we both know we will always be there for each other. I love her so much. We have many fun stories from growing up, playing after she took piano lessons from my mom, and making up stories with our playing that would last forever! So many quotes and good memories. We even got to be roommates at college, which was absolutely the best.

My mom knows and understands me the best out of everyone. I think we've gotten closer through the years. We're SO much alike. I used to think that there was no way I was going to do what she did for a living and that I wasn't going to be like her. Not because I wasn't grateful or didn't like what she did as a mother, but because I've always wanted to be my own person. Well, guess what . . . I'm a LOT like her. We have both been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. She's had it much longer, and still handles it better than I do. A lot better than I do. She understands the frustration, the pain, the fatigue. She keeps going nonstop, while I have my breakdowns. I get so angry and frustrated that I can do as much in the day as I used to. I used to be go go go go all the time, every minute of the day. Now, I get way too exhausted. She knows all the good and bad, sees more in me than I do  . . ever . .in myself, and makes me want to be a better person. She listens to me even when I'm being a complete pain and knows all the bad- yet still  loves me.

These two have meant the world to me. Thank you isn't enough, but its what I have. <3

Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 7: Turning point in life

I thought about this challenge for days. In complete and total honesty, I can't place a set turning point in my life. Everyday I try to change things, try to be better, try to discover more about myself. I did a very quick sketch (very quick, not very good) of things that have and continue to make a difference in my life.

Upper left: Book of Mormon/ scriptures. Upper right: General Conference, middlish: eighth notes- music, bottom: Taylor Building from my alma mater Brigham Young University- Idaho. (Hard to see- my scanner isn't fabulous) I think that right now I'm going through a turning point in my life. Its been a big struggle for a bit, but life continues, and I stick to my values, beliefs, and what I know to be true.
Sorry about the not so fabulous drawings today. Little energy and time. Still have this dumb cold, but its a little better today. I'm determined to still do what I need to today. Tired of being stuck in bed/home. I was tempted not to draw and just say the challenge today, but that's why its a challenge. Work through the junk and discouragement. See you tomorrow with a better drawing. ^^;

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Favorite Movie

Day 6: Favorite Movie. It is really hard for me to pick a favorite movie. There's so many I love: Beauty and the Beast, Tangled, Megamind, and the newer Masterpiece Theater Jane Austen movies. Love them. I also love the Great Mouse Detective, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, and Sherlock Holmes. But the movie I picked was How to Train Your Dragon. That movie is adorable. 

This is Toothless at one of my favorite parts, when he tries to grin at Hiccup. Adorable. Not the most amazing, but it takes me a LONG long time to get things to look ok. ^^; But still practicing. I'm glad today's challenge is a light-hearted happy one, cuz I'm really frustrated about the stupid Wall Street protests. Honestly, this reminds me of what I studied about Russia's fall before communism. I'm not ok with it at all. 
I am a violin teacher, got a masters, I'm in debt for school, and I'm not a rich person at all. In fact I have a hard time feeling successful at all. BUT, that is not the bank's fault. It was my choice to major in what I did. The way I feel I could be more successful is if the lousy government would stay out of my pockets. Speaking of movies- the protestors remind me of this:

Zombies, Sheep.

Anyway, Still have a really crappy cold. I'm chilling so tomorrow I can be back on my feet. 

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Day 5: A doodle!

Here's my doodle:

Inspired by yesterday. I was waiting for my next student and started doodling around the word October on my planner. So I made a bigger doodle today.

Junky cold has moved to my chest today. Its a roaming cold: started in my throat, moved to my head, and now in the chest. Grrrr. dumb thing. I swear, I've caught EVERYTHING this past year. hoorah. I used to have this superman immune system. Not so much anymore. ^^; Here's hoping noone else gets it!

In other news, its beginning to look a lot like October. Finally.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Day 4: Favorite Place

So, this challenge has been . .you guessed it . .. challenging. But you know what? Even if they're not that good ^^; The drawings make me stretch. The unfortunate thing is not having a whole lot of time to spend on each drawing. I have an eye appointment in a little bit and need to finish a few things before. Long explanation before I show you my sketch heh. I'm going to touch up and color this . . . probably not today, but eventually because its something that means a lot to me. Well, here you go- my favorite place:

Tah dah! For all of you who don't know, this is the Twin Falls, Idaho Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints temple. Rough sketch. ^^; So, eventually I'll need to really really touch it up and color. The scanner messed with my little bit of shading . . so its rather blah. But in reality, its gorgeous, peaceful, and absolutely amazing. There you go!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Very different drawing today >.>

The theme today is draw something ugly. Day number three. This one works well for Halloween. I'm a little creeped out by what I drew. Reminds me of like . . the aliens in x-files, or how someone drew the chupracabra. I just drew, heh. Yick. I wouldn't want to see this coming after me. Here it is:

Just a quick draw between cleaning today. I am an aunt again today! My sister- in - law Wendy, and my brother had another little girl. Jordanne Eve Seaman. They sent a super cute picture. She's beautiful and I'm so excited to meet her! I seriously love being an aunt. It really is my favorite thing in the world. Wish I was there holding her right now. I love her already. 
My little niece, River, is so cute too! I feel like I have a connection with her. She and I have fun together and she will say my name "manna" when I'm not devoting all my attention to her. <3 I love all my nieces and nephew so much! 

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Its October!

October is my absolute favorite month! Fall colors, fall veggies and fruits, pumpkins, General Conference, Halloween, cooler weather, crunching leaves . . . I LOVE it! So fun. I would love to do Halloween and Murder Mystery parties throughout the whole month! I need money to do that though >.> Eh heh.

For October I'm doing a drawing a day - its called the 30 Day Challenge. I decided for the first two to do a chibi version of me and my favorite animal. Day One: Draw yourself. Day two: favorite animal.

Tah dah! Doesn't really look like a dog but I figure it works for chibi version. There you go! I will put up each day on here. ^^ Whoops . . didn't put eyebrows . . . oh well.
Trying to get over a cold. I've had it for about 3 days now. I figure any sickness that lasts longer than a day is annoying. Any sickness is annoying. I just get impatient and don't want to rest. I have this knack of cleaning like crazy whenever I get sick. I can't stand being in a messy place when I have to rest. Weird.
General Conference was AMAZING! As always. I never feel so uplifted and hopeful as when I listen to conference. I swear some talks were written especially for me. :) Of course, I'm sure everyone feels that way. heehee.
Stay tuned for day three of drawings and future news. :)

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I Am a Dreamer

I am a dreamer- in a very literal sense. I have vivid dreams every night, some so vivid I wake up completely confused as to what is reality and what isn't. I hope this isn't grounds for insanity >.>. I have dreams all the time that I'm still in school, or that I have to go back to high school to redo a class. Its usually some weird class that is a combination of English, Science, and Math. Sick, I tell you .. . . SICK! ;) I'm always late, or found out that I was supposed to be in a certain class and never remembered to go, or an absolutely ridiculously huge project that I completely spaced until the night before. Those dreams make me more stressed and tired than how I was BEFORE I went to sleep. I heard that the fact that one dreams means one is getting the right amount of sleep. This one still never feels like she gets enough sleep, especially with vivid dreams.
My favorite dreams are the either SO ridiculous I wake up almost laughing, or the ones where life is going super awesome. But, the best are the ones that have an amazing storyline. I always get upset waking up from those, even if they're frightening, because I want to know what happens next. I write those ones down for ideas for stories. I'll have to tell you some of them one of these posts.
Despite having amazing story lines, some of the nightmares I have are way too vivid and scary for me to ever want to remember them again. There was one that was like Inception: several layers of the dream within one. I kept thinking I was awake, but it would just be another layer to the dream. That one was terrifying. I thought I'd never wake up. At one point, I was possessed in my dream . . . I honestly couldn't say anything or move. I just kept screaming in my head for my Dad and a blessing, but wasn't able to say it out loud. *shudder* Not a fun one. I seriously felt strange all day after that one.
That's the other thing about the vivid dreams: I wake up from them and feel off for an amount of time. Sometimes an hour, sometimes a few minutes, sometimes the whole week. I have yet to decide if its a blessing or a curse, but my dreams do make life more interesting. I think maybe I'll purchase a dream book and interpret them. ;)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

I will never forget

I will never forget this day ten years ago. 9/11 always tugs at my heart. I'm SO grateful they caught Bin Laden this year by those brave men over in the middle east. There is, however, something that maims this day. I'm so angry that the mayor of NYC has said that there's no room at the commemoration for the families and the rescuers. They should be the ONLY ones that room is made for.
Also, no clergymen allowed there. How can we slap God in the face?! It is thanks to Him not more died. What does it take for us to remember Him? I'm including a link to President Monson's words that were asked for at this difficult time: Noone could say it better. What are they thinking? What is better to comfort those that mourn than the words of our Father in Heaven? Politicians piss me off. ('scuse my lack of lady-likeness)
I'm currently watching a documentary as I get ready for church on those brave rescuers, and volunteers from ALL over that helped so many. Thank you. Those who give of their time to help others . . . that is what makes America great. It renews my faith in people. That is America at its best- Americans at their best. So many people worked tirelessly day and night to find survivors and people around the city and all over provided aid. The clergymen all around to help spiritually. How could we not allow them to do the same ten years later? So many forget so soon. Don't forget the stories of this day. Don't forget Him. We can't.

Friday, September 9, 2011


Not that my thoughts are more interesting than the rest, but I thought I might use this as another opportunity to just talk and get things out. I also figure, if there's other people that would like to hear, then here ya go! Its also a good way to possibly to some more writing practice. I may eventually post chapters of stories I attempt. We shall see.
I feel like this young adult phase in life is very much a "limbo" stage. I'm constantly reminded that I know very little to nothing and still can't seem to move onto "the next step", despite having gotten both my Bachelor and Masters degrees. I do very much enjoy teaching my private violin students, but after all the years of focusing on music, I've rediscovered that I love reading, writing, and drawing. I've decided to try these other interests in my spare time. That's one thing education has taught me . . . I really love learning and actually researching new things. I will probably end up posting a few things I learn too. ^^ So . . we'll see how this goes.
A warning though: I'm all up for discussions but I don't deal with rudeness. I may post things that I believe in strongly, and would be glad to discuss, but I get emotional and may choose not to respond to comments. ^^ Just to let you know.